1-4-1981

 

my dad found this the other day while cleaning out some of their files. on the back it says " 1-4-81, when mom was feeling sick". i was a 5 1/2 year old girl who loved her mommy.

as i was looking at this i couldn't help but think of my rough (to put it mildly) teenage years and wonder if my mom ever pulled out drawings like this that i made just to give her some hope. i know that ultimately her hope came from the Lord as she's told me she spent a lot of time on her knees but now as a mom myself, i think i'd be putting up the sweet innocent drawings from the past to remember that person is still in there somewhere deep down. (of course i'm praying that my boys aren't anything like me when they are teenagers! chances of that happening---slim!) in my case though, that girl eventually came back. thanks for the time you spent on your knees mom. i love you still and for always.

xo

 

Comments

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after our recent heart to heart (it was recent wasnt it? somehow it already seems like forever ago) cant possibly read this without the tears welling up. we all have 'stuff' - you were simply working through yours and im glad God kept his angels of protection around you during those years so that you'd have the chance to re-discover Him and once again let that sweet person shine through. that sweet person that im now so very lucky to call my friend. one who's a mommy i admire (those are 3 very lucky boys)......thanks for the reminder that ultimately He's in charge. we can do our best, as your mom faithfully did lifting your name to Him in prayer...but at the end of the day, He's got it all under control. He steps in and takes over when we've done all we can humanly do. <3 you!!

[Jenna Pfaff]

Oh my word Juli, you made it sound like no big deal, that you had posted a picture from when you were little. I didn't even think about what you would write! If it weren't for my kids being in here I think I would be balling! I was trying to control it so that I wouldn't get a thousand questions, but WOW! I don't know why, that just touched me SO much! I guess it is because we are moms now and when you said that part about that little girl being somewhere deep in you I about lost it! Thinking not only about mom and you growing up and what she must have been feeling, but also me hoping Makayla will stay that little girl forever and never grow up...wishful thinking, I know! Thank you mom for teaching me to never give up on the power of prayer!!! You were and still are an amazing example to us in your walk with God. He is so good...can't tell you how many times I have thanked him for bringing the good ol' Juli back!!! Can't imagine not having both of you (mom and sis) as my best friends in the whole wide world!!! Juli, you are an amazing mom that is for sure. We are so blessed aren't we! Thanks for this precious reminder of being a mom and what our mom has been and is to us! Love you both so incredibly much!!!

[LuAnn]

Why do I never learn that I should NOT check your blog from work. I always cry. You are an amazing and wonderful girl from an amazing and wonderful family. What you write always blesses my heart SO much. And it always makes me cry. But in a good way, of course. Love you all.

[Candi]

amen

[Lynene Sandbloom]

Candi reminded me tonight at church to read your post! Wow, it took me back all those years ago when I had you in SS in Jr. High.
I remember those days and yet I really saw just a scared little girl who didn't know how not to be scared. The beautiful woman, wife and mother you have become is truly a testament of God's great grace and a mother's
(& father's) determination to not let Satan have you. Your light shines brightly Juli, thanks for showing us in so many ways God's love & compassion. I am so proud of you!

[Cija Cooksey]

Yippee!! Juli blogged!!